Attracts All Kinds Of Focus From All Over the Room, She Smokes ... tsk tsk .. Not LadyLike

 

You can do whatever you want to do alright

I am so demoralised by your actions

Being adviced by others can be so insulting to you

You just love to shoot me to satisfy your ego

No matter how you deny your sacarstic remarks; its still a lie

You have no idea how to reconcile ... expect others to make the first move

Will never win my symphathy if ill words and attitude what you shower to me and call it love

3 bigs words passed my lips in times like these

Dont think anyone can perservere to battle this drama and still stay focused

Which is why it will end with me ... i wont allow anyone else to get hurt

 

 

I am some kind of complicated person who is not able to follow the voice of my feelings.. Tend to usually behave in a way so as to be liked by the others... Often to swallow my feelings, bad or good because i believe that if i express them, then maybe none wiil be by my side... when everything goes absolutely peacefully with the others, could i be at war with myself?

 

I have every reason to believe this cos its been proven.  People are not ready to accept a bipolar Arai.  If she takes a stand and starts a fight in the name of justice; everybody would stay a distance after that.  She can be quite a pushover for she knows she can hurt people (literally). Start to shout and scream for the sake of winning an arguement.  If she stays quiet ... must be her fault; look she's guilty already.  If im bent to clearing my innocence im guilty for any unnecessary chatter.

 

True that everything seeks a balance for inner peace

But what if that inner balance is like running on a blanket of sand on the beach filled wth who knows what hidden beneath the sand. 

You could get cut, burned, bitten, pinched and will only end up exhausted.

 

I am climbing my way to the top

Even it takes me a lifetime to achieve it

Deep down i would like to crush all those who have stepped on me before

Those who never saw me as anything but being a nuisance

I yearn to command; still a friend still human

 

I dont get the respect i deserve

My goal is only one; and that one has already destroyed my sanity

Thank god that i was born stubborn

If i wasnt; i would have broken down, ran away, severed ties or worst case scenario ..... suicide

 

Even if it wasnt my fault; certain words exchanged would make it my guilt to bear

 

I feel like hitting something ....

 

 

 

 

 

Speechless ...

 

I became totally speechless

Due to an overzelous expectation im shark bait again

You might say that its a test of loyalty

Out of the shouting, screaming and confusion ... i said something that leads to the miscommunication right now

What i heard was a different thing thats why i said what i said

While on the other hand she took it in another direction

 

Allegations states that i dont give my family the priority

Do I?

All these started because of creative request

Do i dare to shout out loud and swear that i hate this gift of mine?

It certainly is the magnet of bad relations

Im doing art request for my work, home and friends

I pend my client's art piece for 4 months already ... all they can do is wait

My sis's shoes if i got inspiration i'd do it immediately sometimes ...

Its all about the inspiration

I dont do pieces if i dont have the mood for it, no use doing something half heartedly

 

My buddy asked me of what should i do now

I told him

" I need to die, the more im related to her alive the bigger my sins "

 

Speechless .....

 

 

 

So easy for you to whine about other peoples mistakes

"Oh my goodness i dont know when is this person going to change"

Um last i checked youre no angel either ... we hate your annoying grumbling and bipolar character more

I hate it when you make me mad, cos thats when you will too and turn the house upside down on purpose

All the more i hate to be close to you

For im at peace when im spending alone time to myself

I know im not happy and im not sad

Im just angry when things escalade into cruel plays

Like the quote says "Its all fun and games until somebody gets hurt"

 

I know i told you before where it hurts

Obviously nobody took me seriously

Haha here haha there "ah you gotta be kidding me"

Now since the signs are more evident, you took a step back astonished

"Oh so now you listen"?

Too late ... much to my dismay i cannot stop my sadistic reactions

The more your concern compared to your previous neglect i will put more harm to myself to know that i mean business

My emotions were doing fine without having people suddenly crowding me when situation gets worse

So where were you before?

No thanks

 

Lets say in the alternate world; If a person were to explode literally from bottling up their emotions, secrets and desires

Mine can replecate 50% of an atomic bomb

Been keeping loads of things to myself; obviously some people dont deserve to be told good things

And some just refuses to give a lending ear

So why bother trying ...

 

I wish i had the emotional range of a teaspoon so that i can feel happy and carefree always

 

 

 

 

So hard to penetrate into your circle

Sometimes i wonder why I unlock my doors for you

The very reason why i hate to commit myself, precisely to avoid feeling invisible

Guess ive achieved it ... 

Ive let it go a couple of times but the connection seems to cleverly find its way back

 

 

 

 

Yet again I am left confused wondering "What the hell happened back there?"

One moment it was so casual then turned hostile shortly after that

So many things can annoy you; so many things can drive you crazy

Im definately not enjoying this weird bipolar

For im the target of destress when you take your frustrations out on me

 

 

 

 

i like to play at my friend's house

she has a cool swing out back

if my crocodile bit off your tongue you'd say

gurgle burgle and ack

 

its fun to take trips with my parents

sometimes we ride on a train

one time my neighbour annoyed me

so i made some worms eat his brain

 

you should never eat too much dessert

like ice cream pudding or cake

i popped my friend's alison's pimple

and fed the puss to my snake

 

whenever you have a request

make sure you always say please

when my teacher gave me detention

i gave her a special disease

 

watch the vid

 

 

 

 

 

As right as rain i can predict the tempermant

If not for the tides i could've not seen the moon

You blame the fire for making the pot black

But fail to realise its doing the kettle too

 

How convenient for people to critisize something that needs encouragement just so to feed their own ego.  I quote: "Just because you hate cheese, doesnt mean the rest 2.5 billion people of the world have to hate cheese too".  Your vision of life irks me; so much that i dont think i can rely on your advice 100%.  Its like playing hop-scotch alone beside puddles of quicksand.

 

It came to me ... why are you the only one who hates when the people who loves outnumbers you?

Figures

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Only god and the remains of my soul knew the pain i was going through 5am in the morning today

The worst pain i can think of is the pain relating to your digestion.

Worst than respitory syndrome

Bittter than attacks on the brain and definately more horrifying than my back injury.

 

It lasted longer than i expected; felt like my tummy was burning from inside

I dont think i can describe it enough for anyone to understand

i know i blacked out for a while before the pain woke me up yet again

 

After everything i was too drained to get ready for work

Thought of giving myself till 7am see whether i can still make it

But then again creating another scene at the office; probably not a good idea

 

Like i promised here are some other examples to try

 

 

Try this activity out

You'll see a wonderful 3D effect

Cross your eyes together and focus on the combined visual till you get a clear view

I'll post more pictures for you guys to try

 

Only Arai Has The Answer.

 

 

Lots of occurances happening within the external events of unwanted situations

Confused, Feel a little betrayed and Relieved at the same time

I thought i knew what i wanted, and when i did; it didnt seemed so sweet

 

 

 

 

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

 

 

 

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

 

 

 

Help! Someone shot a hole at my house!!!

Help!! The Black Hole is sucking my house inwards!!!

 

Hahah whatever it is this artist has a quirky sense of humour of attracting the neighbours

Man it looks like the aftermath of a hurricane

But cool playground for the kids dont you think wahahahaha!!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I still remember my 20km trekk at Macritchie resevoir

The stairs that we had to climb ... my god seems never ending

Same goes with Bukit timah; the elevation turning my knee joints to jelly as i got higher

 

Well in Japan they have a killer underground train station

Stairs, elevators and more stairs

 

 

 

 

 

 

Were you living in a world of sclusion?  Enjoying the peace and silence, as daydreaming becomes leisure on a daily basis.  You see each tree shadowed your eyes one by one behind glass windows passing each unfamiliar road.

 

Beyond that comfort zone, you carefully observe the people that walk by on the sides.  Why are they dressed like that?  Where are they from?  Hmm that guy looks cute.  Wow that hair rocks!  Truly not knowing what youre missing by admiring behind closed doors.  Guess now we know how a mannequin feels like.

 

The tune of Placebo's Song To Say Goodbye seemed like a perfect song to listen to on a lazy bus ride to nowhere.  Having a bird's eye view of upcoming passengers from the front seat on the 2nd deck gives some sort of satisfaction to the senses.  Like anticipating the next cute guy to board the bus and hoping he sits next to you.

 

Rocking and bouncing; it turns and stops.  Seems like the neighbourhood gardens became the best nature sights to see along the way and sturdy skyscrapers would create a feeling of awe.  Not a moment too soon, a camera would pop out of the bag to snap the next most intersting thing that pases by.  What feels like being in a savannah full of life and excitement, the city also brings an uncanny resemblance.

 

While gazing on the reflection of others, you'd realise the comfort that stinks in the gallows.  You feel in control while sitting alone allows you to think and imagine.  As the MP3 switches to the next song, the tempo of your mind begins to change.  A rock song begins to build a long unfulfilled dream of pulling a gig on the biggest stage with passionate loud fans singging the songs with you;  whilst a sad ballad would remind you of that painful memory.

 

 

 

Are you ready to become a millionare?

Just make a move and grab it ... IF YOU CAN! WA HAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!

 

This was an advertisement done by 3M

A security glass made by their company and putting it to a real test

By arranging 10,000 pieces of $100 bills into the frame

What does that total to? A MILLION DOLLARS!!!

 

Hey i want some ... lets crack it open and share

This is to show how confindent they were

Nonetheless security was placed near the area and i'd bet they took it out the next day or something

Some one could just uproot the frame overnight .... who knows

 

 

 

 

 

Highlight the ones that are true in different colours

 

 have a cell phone.
i have friends that use me.
i am an only child.
i love dangly earrings.
i love cold weather.
i'm obsessed with the computer.

i'm obsessed with the TV
i have shot a gun before.
i can't live without music.
i have no tolerance of ignorant people.
i have ridden on a motorcycle before.
i'll be in this town forever.
i've been to 5 other countries.
i get annoyed easily.
i eventually want kids.
i have neat handwriting.
i have more than a few horrible memories.
i am addicted to chocolate.
i am an atheist.
i love airplane rides.
i love taking pictures.
i hate people who are fake.
i can be mean when i want to.
my parents care about my grades.
one of my best friends is a girl.
i have way too many wallets.
i'm obsessed with lip gloss.
i am easy to talk to.
i would never eat raw fish.
i cry easily.
i hate when people are late.
i procrastinate.
i love winter.
i have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
i love to sleep.
i wish i were smarter
i'm afraid of flying.
i hate drama.
i bite my nails.
i have been on an 8 hour drive.
i never fight with my parents.
i love the beach.
i have never had the chicken pox.
i have gone out in public in my pajamas.
i can't control my emotions.
i have a best friend (3 actually)
i have moved more than once.
i truly love my friends.
i have (had) braces.
i have never broken a bone.
i hate my computer.
i love girls that play the drums.
I play the drums thats why i state the obvious.
i'm a happy person.
i love to dance.
i love to sing.
i love cleaning my room.
i tend to get jealous very easily.
i love cute underwear.
i love night better than day.
i don't like to study for tests.
i have been on the phone for over 5 hours.
i am too forgiving.
i have horrible sense of direction.
i miss elementary school.
i'm a daddy's boy/girl.
i love the color pink.
i love to sew.
my eye color changes (almost black in the day, brown at night ... weird but true)
i should see a therapist.
i played on a guys sports team.
i become stressed easily.
i hate/detest liars.
i love the smell of rain.
i love my family.
i hate needles.
i love needles on contrare
i am a perfectionist.
i always wanted to learn to play the drums.
i hate the feeling of failure.
i have friends in other countries.
i know how to cook.
i can be quite selfish.
at times, i still act like a little kid.
i have food allergies.
i love to read.
i wish i were more motivated for school.
i love getting stuff in the mail.
i have problems with letting go of old feelings.
i hate being alone.
i love summer.
i love the weekends.
i love black eyeliner.
i think I'm a looker.
i type with one hand.
i live in a one story house.
i wear make-up.
i have never rode on an underground subway.
i can't swim.
i have bad memories.
i go to church.
i sing in the shower.
i hate cheerleaders.
i usually get what i want.
i have been on stage before.
i love roller coasters.
no one knows the full story of my life.
i am close to my parents.
i don't have a curfew.
I pierced, smoked and fought