She's picking on me yet again

I feel more miserable each and every increasing day

Is it very extreme for me to say that i dont have to will to live if death is just knock away?

She is a damn bully and i dont appreaciate all her bloody sarcasms and insults

When can she be forgiving, compassionate and be nurturing for once

When can she expect me to see her as a teacher instead of a dictator?

Never i suppose ...

 

I WANT TO GET OUT OF HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

I tried to rely on comfort foods, endorphins and good old fun; nothing is working to shake off my problem.

Is there any other way?

I used to be ok with what i am ... but nowadays my stress has got the better of me and im really disgusted with i what see

Because of that im always back to square one

Ignorance is bliss but its not when im reminded of it.

Having something hidden and shown didnt help at all

Being humans they only like what they see

When slapped with the truth they will run as far as they can

 

Im tired ... dont give me anymore problems 

I hate to live with the unhapiness

I dread dying in misery

Dont need no sympathy

Just an another way to feel better

 

 

 

Ok im not trying to sound mushy or anything but this was inspired by my friend who wont stop pairing me up with somebody undesirable. Now i must explain what kind of guys appeal to me. Haiz i dedicate this piece to you ...'horny man'

Who is he?

He must be mature
But not so naggy
He must be smart
But cannot be cocky
He must be kind
But not that showy
He must be fun
But not so pushy

He need not be rich
Im not for his money
He must be filial
loves his family
He's always creative
But can be tacky
He can be silly
I think its funny


He can be skinny
I dont mind at all
He can be ugly
From a tragic fall
He can be chubby
Mirror Mirror on the wall
Who is the fairest one of all?

But who cares who looks who knows anyways
Only one type can blow & sway me away
He who can chop, dice, stir & mix
Yes A guy who can cook! Thats the way it is!!

Delete It  Cancel

 

 

 

I should applaude and reward myself everytime im having a wonderful day

As every other day is miserable as hell

Tormet, depressing, misery, hurt and upset

 

No change here

I celebrated the new year with depression

Ode to me!!!

 

Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies,

Pushing all the mercy down down down,

I wanna see you try to take a swing at me

Come on, I'm gonna put you on the ground ground ground

 

Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies,

I'm above you smiling at you drown drown drown

I wanna kill and rape you the way you raped me

At all pull the trigger and you're down down down

 

Why are you trying to make fun of me?

You think its funny what the fuck you think you're doing to me?

You take your turn lashing out at me

I want you crying with your dirty ass in front of me

 

All ... All my hate cannot be found

I will not be drowned by your thoughless scheming

So, you can try to tear me down

Beat me to teh ground

I will see you screaming

 

All my friends are gone; they died

They all screamed and cried

My fire's been blown away

I crumble to dust