In the words of MacBeth;

"Whats done is done."

What a week it has been

BaCares flyer distribution on saturday

Big walk on sunday

Went round the island to search for materials on wednesday

Finally the official newspaper collection by BaCares yesterday

Phew!!! My body almost couldnt take it

That is a lot of labour and body work for one week

Classes still reminisce even if i chose to forget them

Thus i submit to reality and performed my dutiful life

 

Common tests in one week time

Time is my disposition

If it seems all impossible curbing the minutes

How do i make up for my life

Now that i have no time

Spending every minute saved to mug as much as i can

Praying for a smooth semester

 

There's not a lot to say but i feel like im just 2/4 and heart down

Even if its my final year i still havent found myself

A little voice inside my head told me to put my pencil down

Cos life is my lawyer they make the rules

So take out your notebook and take these words down

Take this advice cos its the right move

 

Hmmm i dont know

People just talk about their lives too much

Whether its upfront or blogging

Hey! Talking wont get you anywhere

What happened to those times where you would just get up

and just do it  ... you know

Yeah "STICK IT UP TO THE MAN" ... thats what they call it

The world is just too messed up

So its inhabitants got complacent with their fate

And allow others to take them by their bedposts

Knifing their bread with no guilt at all

 

My friend's getting married in 2 weeks time

Feeling really happy for her

Finally she can settle down with no worries

Im kind of sorry for her to go through so many rituals before meeting the right guy

Speaking of marriage; my schoolmates are all getting hitched one by one

Either legitimately or accidentally

At my age yeah i would say its appropriate

Its a trend closing ties shooting their feet

I keep my jealousy close

And if you see this makes you happy then im not the only one

I figured if i were to be in a relationship;

It would end up un-describable

This crazy mind quotes and paints compared to shopping and clubbing

If philosophy on art barouque moved you

Do you love mozart?

I compared myself to everyone else around me

This heavy part never seemed so hard

cos poets are just kids who didnt make it

I keep my jealousy close

So what ...

 

 

 

 

 

Dearest Miz,

I have really bad news and i'm extremly sad to have to tell you this. The vet i used to go to sucks so i went to another one for a second opinion since gas is still not passing motion.  The 2nd vet after a series of tests over the next 4 days said that gas is suffering from megacolon. and it is a life threatening situation.

here are the explanations for megacolon.

The colon is a tubular, muscular structure, which represents the end of the intestinal tract.  It is continuous with the rectum.  The colon has several functions, such as absorption of water, storage of feces, and defecation (emptying of the bowel).  When the muscles in the wall of the colon are stimulated to contract by nerves from the spinal cord, fecal material is pushed out of the body.

megacolon is a condition of colonic dilation and is a fairly common problem in the cat.  This means, the colon stretches out like a balloon and can  no longer contract normally therefore the cat cannot have a bowel movement on a regular basis and becomes constipated. 

This may sound simple but it is in fact a life threatening disease.  The cat can become toxic and die from the feces that is packed into the colon.

The vet tells me that because gas is so small, the clearing of her colon might be a problem and gas prob will not make it as she is too young.Megacolon is such young cats are often very rare and i don't understand why gas will have it since her diet is good and healthy. The vet said that it is not due to her diet but prob something inside of her and that she is born this way.Even tho gas is currently active and alert, she will eventually die from the toxic built up inside her body.

I spent every last bit of my money on her x rays and stuff. It total up to $360 .With or without surgery she is going to die. The vet suggested that i should let her go while she is not in any sort of pain or discomfort.

I'm so so sorry miz. i did everything i can. i wiped her everyday cos her anus was oozing.and showered her and i really did the best i ever can this past few weeks. The medications from the first the vet are not working. thats why i brought her to the animal hospital.  i feel horrible to have to put her down today. rest assured that she wasnt not in ANY sort of pain when they give her the injection. i cried my heart out today and it was a really bad day.

I'm so sorry to tell you this. i miss her terribly.

i hope you will forgive me that i was unable to do more for her condition.

will you please forgive me.

In loving memory of gas.

february 2006 - 18th may 2006.

i love her very much.

sincerly
jas