It has become inevitable that trouble brews over Rai’s head on Sundays

No longer a day for relaxation and peace but one that turns the house upside down at the presence of hostility

So many scenarios began to form just as the first ray of light painted the sky

Why in the world would want to do everything on a Sunday and freak out when things don’t go the way you planned it?

Today is supposed to be a special day

Not anymore

Been tainted by the screams; clouded our hearts you caused us to ignore you

What is the use of a celebration when it leads to so much dread in the end?

I hate it when you still move on with the plan with an insincere heart

Cause when its all over you begin to digress

You seem to be ok with the hypocrisy

 

Guess where I am right now?

Writing this piece at the National Library

Went out anyway when I should be helping fixing the house

My sister’s birthday is today and her BF is invited for dinner

I feel so sorry for the poor boy

He has no idea how dark and deep my mother is

Its like playing hopscotch beside puddles of quicksand

Of course she was pissed when I didn’t give a damn

I began to care less ever since I started working

I know it … she noticed it …

 

Working isn’t a big deal to me

But there is an amount of stress when youre expected to be equally efficient between work and home

 

Currently my day job is only half of my progress

Im ripping my guts out trying to make my small business work

Being an entrepreneur is not easy

I have to divide my 24 hours into 3 parts and sleeping is not an option

Work – Chores – Kreva Customs

And if im lucky I get to sleep for 3 to 4 hours

Then again she refuses to understand my mission

I take my objectives very seriously and by you screaming doesn’t help to realize my negligence

Being unkind is so your thing nowadays

Its so hard for you to be more understanding and patient

 

 

I think I have to start a dictionary of things megalomaniac events between me and her

Every now and then she will lay down a list of threats to get me to conform

Its funny cos I would want to witness it for myself when those threats become real

Something worth entering into my memoirs

 

I need moral support of my family in my craft

The Arts is the one thing im very good at

I guess it doesn’t appeal to her as a lucrative media for business

And the time I spent on it is more than I do at home

Her threat was to destroy all my creations by cutting and vandalizing

Hmm interesting … what a way to support your children

 

 

Things just didnt seem to go smoothly today

Or is it just the weekends when people around you tend to get more needy or expects you to be more available than usual?

Whatever it is ... today sucked!!!

My road show was pretty normal ... what to do ... I was all alone and you cannot expect much immediate response

 

Paint here paint there ... get bored very easily

Kids usually reacts to this sort of things

they learn better by watching other people do it

so some kids arent afraid to get by my side to have a closer look

sooooo cute!!! 

 

Education comes to a standstill for now 

I figured gaining work experience is the appropriate action to take right now

Age wise ... its more of a personal choice to start working immediately after graduating 1.0

1.0 is a term according to my understanding as finishing school a semester ahead before my current classmates

Actually i spent an extra sem so its like held back la .. my graduation ceremony wont be till next april

 

So finally started work

Not to say that im totally happy cos im not due to a major issue

But for the sake of the experience i will endure for at least a year

I really want to get my hands on launching their new product

New ideas popping inside my head cant wait to get it done

Guess once i have had these under my care there will be something sweet to print on my next resume

But my time there isnt going to be long ... i cant work backwards man ... i need technology